Nagbabalik (na puno ng kalungkutan..)

Ipagpaumanhin ninyo ang matagal ko na pagkawala sa blog na ito. Ipagpaumanhin din ninyo dahil para sa post na ito, bilang pagpupugay sa wikang Filipino at sa huling araw ng Buwan ng Wikang Pambansa, bayaan ninyo akong gamitin ito upang mas mailahad ko ang aking mga saloobin at mga naganap sa nakalipas na tatlong linggo.

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Naging masyado akong abala nitong nagdaang tatlong linggo sa pagtatrabaho sa aklatan ng CEU Malolos. Marahil batid na ng lahat na ako po ay isang 'student assistant' sa nasabing aklatan. Hindi naman dahil sa ito na lang ang inaatupag ko kundi dahil sa 'Sports Fest' nitong nagdaang linggo at sinulit ko ito para makarami ng oras ng pagduduty. Para sa kaalaman ng lahat, kada oras po ang bayad namin dito.

Isa sa mga ginawa namin nitong nagdaang linggo ay ang pagdaragdag namin ng bagong anyo ang library (sayang at wala akong mga larawan) para naman daw medyo magkaroon ng buhay ang library. Bukod pa ito sa patuloy na ginagawa namin na pagcacatalog ng mga libro at pag-aasikaso sa mga gumagamit ng serbisyo ng library at sa mga 'maiingay' (Oo, library nga siya pero talaga namang parang wala sa library ang ilan sa mga nagpupunta dito.)

At oo nga pala, natanggap ko noong ika-17 ng Agosto ang aking kauna-unahang sweldo. At dahil proud ako na sumweldo ako sa unang pagkakataon narito ang ilang larawan:

Maliit ngunit iba pa rin ang pakiramdam dahil alam mo na pinaghirapan mo ito. :)

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Naging maganda naman ang resulta ng aking prelims. Pero ang medyo ikinagulat ko ay ang pagkakuha ko ng 1.25 sa isang asignatura na labis ko na kinamuhian nung nasa UP pa ako - Math.

Sabi ng iba, madali lang daw kasi ang Statistics kaya ganun. Pero para sa akin, hindi madali na kalimutan ang sama ng loob at pagkabigo na idinulot nito sa akin noon. Ngunit heto ngayon, ito pa ang asignatura na kung saan ako nakakuha ng pinakamataas na marka.

Isa lang ang masasabi ko: napakabait at puno talaga ng karunungan ang Diyos.

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Patuloy pa din ako na dinadalaw ng katamaran na magsulat. Maliban sa isang artikulo na aking ipinasa para sa aming school paper, wala pa din akong inspirasyon na makita (o makuha) upang itulak ako na magsulat ulit.

At sa paghahanap ko ng inspirasyong ito, naulit na naman ang mga nangyari sa nakaraan.

Naibahagi ko na sa inyo sa isang dati ko na blog post na noong mga panahong ako'y sobrang nabigo sa pag-ibig, nakapagsulat ako ng mahigit tatlumpung tula. Isang di-pangkaraniwang pagkakataon na noon lamang nangyari sa akin. Wala akong kahilig-hilig magsulat ng tula noon. Ngunit sa sobrang napuno ako noon ng halo-halong emosyon, ibinuhos ko ang lahat ng ito sa mga tula na iyon.

Matapos ang huling tula na aking nilikha para sa nangyaring iyon, natapos ang lahat at ako'y 'nagmove-on.'

Bakit ko ito muling nabanggit? Dahil heto na naman ako sa punto ng pagkalito, pagkalungkot, pagkagalit, pagkainis at pagkabigo dahil sa pag-ibig.

May nagawa siya. May nagawa ako. Pero sa akin ko nakita ang pinakamalaking pagkukulang. At nagawa niya iyon nang dahil sa pagkukulang na ito. Hindi ko na ibabahagi pa ang ibang naganap. Sa amin na lamang ito.

Kami pa rin ba? Hindi ko alam.

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Ngunit, dahil muli sa mga naganap na ito, nanariwa ang nakaraan. Hindi pa pala ako natututo.

Sabi ng isang kaibigan, kailangan ko daw magdesisyon. Sa mga nakaraang pagkakataon na ginawa ko ito, ako ang laging talo.

Talo dahil sa napakatanga ko. Talo dahil hindi ako marunong makipagrelasyon.

Talo dahil sa mata ng madla, ako ang sumira ng lahat.

Wala pa akong relasyon na umabot ng isang taon. Noon, nangako ako na kung dumating man siya, di ako bibitaw anuman ang nangyari. Pero iba na pala kapag narito na. Mahirap magbitaw ng pangako.

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Nitong nagdaang Huwebes (Agosto 27), may nakasabay ako na magkasintahan. Kakilala niya ako at malamang binabasa din niya ang aking blog. Nakita ko sa kanila ang 'di pangkaraniwang pagmamahalan na aking pinapangarap noon. Inaamin ko, lubos akong naiinggit.

At lingid sa kanilang kaalaman, umiiyak ang aking kalooban dahil doon ko napagtanto na napaka-immature ko pagdating sa pag-ibig.. na wala akong karapatan na magkaron ng karelasyon dahil hanggang umpisa lang ako.

Mainggit man ako, wala na akong magagawa dahil nangyari na ang lahat.

Sana lang dinggin na Niya ang naging dasal ko kanina.

Amen.

Share Your Thouhts

We would surely all agree with what the great philosopher Aristotle told us thousands of years ago: Man is a social animal. Our blogs, Facebook profiles and Twitter accounts prove how we cannot live alone and we always need someone to talk to or connect with others. Sometimes even if we see our friends almost every day, we would still talk them through our cell phones or on the net. We really love to be with others that it seems we cannot survive without them.

That’s why on the web, we have found better ways not just only to connect with our family, friends or co-workers but to also connect with other people who we share common interests. This had been made possible through online forums. Over the past few years, we have seen its exponential growth in terms of the number of people engaging in discussions on forums that have specific themes or topics. We have political forums, tech forums, religion forums and even hobby forums. Any topic, issue or theme that you can think of, you’ll surely find one on the web.

One of these great forums where in you can literally or figuratively share your thoughts is Thoughts.com. What makes this forum site different from other forums is that you would really feel the urge to engage and share your thoughts with others just by seeing their name. It is literally the convergence of thousands of thoughts posted through their very well categorized message boards.

Although they don’t stick to a particular theme or issue, this only means that these forums can help you to become a very well rounded person because you’ll be in the know not just on one particular topic but on others as well. This offers us an overview on how different aspects of life unfold each day and what we seem to have been missing out due to our very busy schedules. It also gives us the avenue to spill out and share to others our angst, hatred, love, happiness and sadness that is within us. Still, with its wide range of topics, you can surely find your own spot in the forum’s message boards.

This is a really nice way to share your thoughts, feelings and experiences with its thousands of members across the world and hopefully, you’ll also learn a lot from them.

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Recover Your Deleted Files

It had been a usual problem for PC users – we sometimes tend to accidentally delete some of the most important files we have. It could be an important contract or a company presentation that you need for that big report tomorrow. Even worse, it would usually happen at times when you are already about to use it. It would really be a big hassle to redo all of it and sometimes you would just give up which could result in one great opportunity of a lifetime missed because of your carelessness.

But to save us from things happening from bad to worse, there are a lot of software programs available to help you recover deleted files. Some of them are offered free for download over the web but most of these freeware are very unreliable. Still, some of us are discourage to buy licensed data recovery software programs because they cost from fifty to a hundred bucks. Still, the latter would be the better choice since it will give is tried and tested and gives us guarantee that you are only to get the best quality out of the product that you are buying.

In this aspect, Easy File Undelete gives you the best value for your money. What makes it different from other data recovery software is that it is truthful in its words. Why did I say that? They do not promise you to ‘recover all the deleted files.’ Instead they promise you to ‘recover as many deleted files as possible.’ Can other software programs say that? I bet not. Because they are afraid that customers won’t try to use it. But Easy File Undelete is not.

It is because they are quite confident with the features that their software has. One of these is the ability to recover photos that had been taken using almost all brands of cameras that you can think of. It also comes with a feature that allows you to take a preview on a certain file before you recover it. That way, it would save you a lot of time in looking for the exact file that you are looking for.

Aside from that, it can even work in large databases. But what really makes it different from other data recovery software is that it can recover deleted files even though you have reformatted your computer or laptop! Installing it on your PC would be a very much easy for you since it supports almost all versions of Windows starting from its 2000 version.

Corazon Aquino, Icon of Philippine Democracy

I had just woke up this morning when I heard our radio in its full volume. It was Senator Noynoy Aquino. I knew it. Corazon Aquino is finally with our Creator. She died at 3:18 AM of cardio-respiratory arrest presumably a complication of her colon cancer.

Isn't it a coincidence that she died on the same month her husband Ninoy Aquino died (August 21)?

Things happened so fast. It was only last night when I was watching her last SONA and historic speech in the US Congress and some memorable speeches by her late husband. I was planning to make a post about their speeches which are indeed fiery and full of nationalism, patriotism and sincerity.

I guess, she had fulfilled her mission. It is now time for our dear Corazon Aquino, the icon of Philippine Democracy and the epitome of a true politician to be with our Creator and be with her husband who is waiting for her to come home.

Some may still berate her for not doing some things that she should have done, but giving us back our freedom and democracy is more than enough for us to be thankful to her.

Corazon Aquino. 1933-2009. Former President. Icon of Philippine Democracy. A hero. A mother.

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